Writing is something I really struggle with. Can you tell from all the gaps of time in between posts? A bit ironic considering how I have a blog, right?
It’s not because I have nothing to write about, but rather because it’s hard for me to put pen to paper and articulate the idea in a way that will make sense to me or someone else at a different mood/mindset/time.
Maybe it’s because I don’t have a clear audience in mind or because I don’t even completely understand what I’m thinking/feeling at the time, or maybe I’m just scatterbrained. There are plenty of possible reasons.
The other night, I set up my laptop on the table in the living room (instead of bundling up in bed), grabbed all the candles I had, made a cup of honey tea and began to watch a tv show to decompress. Within minutes, ideas started swelling in my head and I had this urge to write write write.
I switched off the tv show and started typing. Something about the stillness and darkness allowed me to relax and just let it out. I felt like I could do and say anything without judgment or fear. I was relaxed but focused. The thoughts that usually delay or stop me from publishing faded away. Everything in the world was put on hold. Time just seemed to stop.
It’s the same feeling I get when I am out and about before the sun is up: the streets are empty and people are still sleeping and it’s just me. It’s the same feeling I get when I soak in a bath. It’s the feeling I get when I’m laying in grass or looking out at a spectacular view.
Just me, my thoughts and in this case, a blank page to fill.
Can’t believe it took me this long to discover this, but I’m glad I did. I went out and bought some tealights today! The desk that was previously cluttered with makeup and papers is now my desk again. Here’s to hoping it’ll help me keep blogging more consistently in 2015.
What do you do to write more and better?
“Whether you’re keeping a journal or writing as a meditation, it’s the same thing. What’s important is you’re having a relationship with your mind. – Natalie Goldberg”