Thanksgiving was different this year for me. It was the first time I was staying in the city and wasn’t spending the holiday and days off with my family. I didn’t mind it so much at first but after seeing everyone else with their families or traveling to see their loved ones, I couldn’t help but think about what was missing. But then I realized how thankful and lucky I am. I started to replace all of my thoughts of lack with thoughts of abundance. While doing so, I was reminded of something I witnessed not too long ago.
I have written in my iphone notes:
Nov 9 4.53 pm
a homeless man in his mid 40s started talking in the subway.
“i’m sorry to bother you and I don’t mean to depress you.
i dont have any magic tricks or acrobatic skills.
you see i used to have a job. the busier i got the more phone calls i got and the more people wanted to talk to me. and then my family was struck with cancer. If not cancer, they got a stroke. i dont have any family to go to now…..
i hope you never have to experience losing sleep because its too cold. having to wear the same clothes for months. or your best friends hanging up on you when you need them.”
These are just bits and pieces of his plea but I remember making eye contact with this man and feeling his emptiness. A painful emptiness that I understood but hoped to never endure. As I write this, I wonder and hope that this man is doing ok in this fickle weather.
We have so much to be thankful for even though sometimes, it might not feel like it and it might be hard to see. I am guilty of that without a doubt. It is so easy to fall into that trap.
But this year, I’m thankful for a lot of things.
Thankful for a warm home to go to. Clothes to wear. A job to sustain my adventures and exploration. The opportunity to be in a city that others dream of living in. Thankful for the mistakes and experiences within the past year that have kicked my butt and spirit multiple times. Thankful for the realizations I’ve come to and the people who have stayed in my life despite everything. Thankful for the opportunity to start again and be better, if only I have the courage to try. Thankful for everything that has made me want to try again and again.
Thankful for you, taking the time to read this not-exactly-lighthearted post.
Wishing you an abundance of good things, in business and life.